I did it again! I disappeared.
It's been such a hard time since I last came here.
The year has...really sucked.

Where to begin..

Well, at first the year started out fine, then took a tragic turn.
Got a phone call by my grampas ex telling us how he was in the hospital
on life support...
She needed to contact us in order to take him off of it.
Needless to say things got hard...
Well after he passed, I headed out to New Mexico with my mother and grandmother
to meet amanda and my aunt sharon there and view his body.
What a shitty time that was.
I watched my mom fall apart completely and it was the most terrible thing. ever.
I never want to see that happen again, or go through it again..
But I know sooner or later it's going to and that knowledge kills me.
well we stayed in my grampas old apartment until they turned him into a bunch of ashes, then we took his ashes to kentucky.
Instead of holding a funeral or something for him...
Just a very very close few family members took his ashes to a top of a mountain to a family gravesite and dug the hole and buried his ashes ourselves.
But that's not the only crappy part of the year...the same day that my grampa died...my step grandmother died too.
After all of that, I get stuck in pace for forever and was absolutely miserable.
I've only been home very recently.
Just recently I got news that my uncle has a brain tumor as well.
It's been such a long and very dark year for me.



I'm hoping that it will change soon.